it is go time.

there are 67 days left for me to be a single girl and kevin to be a single guy. then we promise to never be single again. to put our relationship number one in our lives. it got so real after our second meeting with our Pastor last Sunday. this is real. so real. and so forever. it's so simple. God made man and then woman so that onewould never be alone again. it's overwhelming. simple, but can change your life.

i am excited. overwhelmed. know that this day is going to be so emotional for me. i read cards from our shower last saturday and cried. i talked to my dear sweet friend, amanda and her mom carri and it made me cry. people who have touched my life over the years, thank you. a million times over. we are lucky. blessed. and so ready to be together.

on another fun note.. in tennessee there are the bugs called cicadas. they are pointless, disgusting, and absolutely unnecessary. they come out every 13 years. guess what, this MAY is 13 years. AWESOME. hope you like cicadas people cause there is no stopping them. i was so upset 2 nights ago, now bring on the tennis racquet and let's swat them down. okay so not a fun note, but you know.

i have so many little things left to do. NEED TO KICK IT IN TO GEAR.

we had our first shower last week. talk about having to many friends and family there to support us. amazing, incredible. but, i thought i was going to pass out before it. i was so nervous. it is kind of funny now to me. i may be nervous the day of.... i would put money on it!

here are some pictures from this past weekend. great times.

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and bye bye February

so february has come and gone. really fast, sometimes too fast.. but i guess most of the time not fast enough?? oh i don't know.. my brain is scattered and the lists are multiplying. things are getting crossed off, but then other things are being remembered that they need to get done. it's endless it feels like.

went on a search for earrings today. i couldn't decide if i wanted to go more along the lines of just silver, or if i wanted to be a little bit more me with color.. i went with color. i heart them.. thanks anthropolgie.

i got me a brand new pair of running shoes. i have been wearing the same 2 pairs of tennis shoes for almost 10 years now. i don't think i can give them up.. i think they will just go in a special spot in my closet for a little while i enjoy running in these new shoes that practically project me forward when i step. kevin sent them to me. it was a surprise. a thank you for doing some much wedding stuff. i love being surprised. i had no idea. it was perfect.

thanks to groupon also.. you are giving us our transportation after the wedding for a discount! who knew that groupon would end up helping us in this way? i didn't but i sure do like it.

i get to go to florida on friday. roadtrip with my seester. I'M PUMPED. dance party in the car time!!

double digits.

YES.. double digits have arrived.. meaning there are 99 days left. thank heaven. seriously.

next, oh just been doing so much DIY all day today.. painting so many frames, making so many chalkboards. it's fun and i enjoy it. soon i will get to share it with everyone and that will be joyous.

tomorrow, i am getting to go in the woods and cut some tree stumps for the wedding with my dear brother clayton. he called and told me to pack the chainsaw. we're getting country on yall. it's going down in the woods!

the other night i had another dream. kevin was marrying two of us at the same time. one of my best friends and me. it was weird. and i got mad, cause she wasn't helping to pay for it. i told her the next day. we laughed.

played both wedding songs for my momma yesterday and she started crying. it made me tear up on the side, but she doesn't know. i sure hope this isn't a sign for a day full of crying. i fear it will either be a mass amount of tears or a mass amount laughter. bless my heart for either crying or laughing uncontrollably during weddings. i really need to find the happy median.

wedding nightmare #1.

I had the most real, i never want it to be real ever, wedding nightmare last night. I woke up crying and sweating because in that nightmare I had run from downtown Franklin to downtown Nashville.. which is like 30 miles and everyone knows my cut off is 2, so yeah. No wonder why I was cryingggg.

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re are 102 days left! which is way not a lot compared to where we started. Every day little things get done, people step up and take care of things they need to, and well, me.. I get a little crazier. I have been sooo laid back and now I'm getting hyper! And that my friends, is fun and annoying for the people around me. I apologize.. now, ahead of time.. at least it only happens once in my life! well, i mean i'm annoying always, but only wedding annoying one time.

it's just the little things. those details.. i didn't realize I had put a lot of thought into it, cause I really didn't think i did, but then kevin said.. yeah amanda, you have.. and i said.. oh okay. I just can't wait until i have in my possession every little detail that we need for the day. i'm someone that needs to have everything together in one place (which is the closet in my bedroom and i think when my dad finally decides to open

the doors, i gonna get yelled at because it's a mess) so that i can feel at ease.

our invitations are done and being ordered. our friend from high school, Caity, did an incredible job on them. Exactly how we pictured, exactly perfect. we took our engagement pictures this past weekend, they were fun. i laughed a lot. we made the perfect decision hiring rebekah and ben.

i have currently eaten so many carrots i feel like i'm a bunny in the realest way.

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SOON TO BE BROTHER IN LAW JJ GAVIGAN. you're a cool kid my friend.

and thanks RJH for going to the gym 2 days in a row with me. the motivation is there when someone is around.

and so happy i got to spend my third valentine with kevin. he is neat. and i think i'll keep him forever.

babes forever. we still make the same faces always.

happy love month yall

It is LOVE month. That means it's February. That means it's one month closer to the wedding, which I was reminded by my seester seems to taking forever to get here. But February is a short month so really, it's kind of short until it gets here.

I love, love month. It's sweet.

Okay, also... can you please tell me why there are a billion options for what to wear in your hair when you get married? It is making my indecisive mind struggle and be conflicted the most, all the time. Flowers, headbands, a flowered headband.. the options are endless and all I know if that I have a lot of hair and that whatever I decide I just want it to be right. M

EHHH ( that is my animal sound for I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO EVER)

Also, last night I rocked a little babe to sleep and honestly I think that is such a little blessing from God and I shared that with Kevin and he said let's have a kid and I said oh no no, not ever so fast.. Yep, no kiddos coming from this lady soon. But it is extremely strange to think that I will have kids sooner than later in life and it's exciting, freaky, strange, sweet, and everything possible to feel I guess.

One more realization.. driving in the car is when I get the most time to think about everything and man, sometimes I just cry out of nowhere because of how blessed I have been and am and how I am undeserving and grace is just given to me and I can't even begin to comprehend how much love God has for us and how because of that I in turn can love. It's overwhelming. It's real. It's run-on-sentence real.

HAPPY LOVE MONTH.

(eam gonna make fun of me cause i supposed to be asleep)

oh my heart is happy cause tomorrow I go to tallahassee

oh my, yes I get to go to Tallahassee this weekend! That means I get to go back to my college and that, my dear friends, means my heart just grew a couple sizes for the next 2 days. I loveeeeee, loveee, loveeeddd college. I miss it all the time. I wish that I could relive college all over. Oh my oh my seriously I'm just going to love it.

plus I get to see my dear friend Jadey, Jade. ANDDDD I get to roam around the dance department, see old friends, watch new dancers, and just love it all... and Kevin gets to come and that makes it even better cause that place is like home. Oh and we get to recognize Lynda Davis, that speaks for itself :)

Here are a few pictures from college. man, i just can't put into words what this place means to me.

this only comes around once.

I am trying to be careful to remember that planning my own wedding is something that I will only get to do once and that I need to enjoy it, remember it, and cherish it. I think it's easy to get carried away with the stressful and overwhelming part of it, but seriously do those parts really matter?

I was thinking the other day while walking around downtown franklin, how lucky Kevin and I are that so many people have helped us out with our wedding already.. specifically, I was pretty much trying to think of the ways in which we can thank all of them and let them know that. Recommendations from friends have been incredible. Most of our vendors have been responsive, quick, and easy to work with. And the one that wasn't, is no longer a part of it, and instead we have a wonderful new gal who has already made us feel much better. I think that finding the appropriate way to thank these people, is a to do very high on my "green list" towards the final months.

on a super random side note, I have a very strong desire to shrink my large ribcage, but unfortunately have no control over that one.

next, I really need to find out what I want to wear in my hair for the wedding. I have been looking, thinking, debating, over what to do, but I'm seriously not sure yet. For now, I will debate over what to wear for engagement pictures. Those are coming soon and those make me excited.

lastly, if we get anymore snow I am going to freak. I love it. It's pretty.. it makes me appreciate God's wonderful and awesome beauty.. but Tennessee can't handle it. Things shut down.. they get cancelled... they mess up my schedule... no bueno my amigos.. no bueno.